Focus on what you can control
"Why does no one admit his failings? Because he's still deep in them. It's the person who's awakened who recounts his dream, and acknowledging one's failings is a sign of health." Seneca- Letters from a Stoic
The conditions of any interaction between oneself and another can be broken down into two categories: Their actions and yours. You can only control the latter.
Something that I have been working on is upon every negative thing that comes up in my life; when a relationship goes poorly, when a workout doesn't go well, when studying isn't sinking in, I stop myself mentally from tumbling into anger, excuses or resentment. (I mean really, how does someone survive long enough into adulthood to come into my gym and strike themselves with a sledgehammer?)
One has the capability to control the impact of outside elements, including other people, by developing a sense for ascertaining each person or things unique temperament. From that basis one may predict future behavior and either steer interactions in a favorable direction or choose not to allow into ones life those whom would affect it negatively. Those things still fall into the category of your own actions.
This applies to situations in any avenue of life, not just interpersonal. Business ventures, driving in heavy traffic, your training in the gym, etc. Life.
When something happens that leads me to feel that angered, blaming sentiment rise up, I mentally halt myself and say something to the effect of "Shut up. Stop what you're doing." I pause for a few heartbeats to accept this and then mentally say to myself, "It's my fault."
I then break down every indication over the course of the event which I should have taken as a sign of eventual failure. It doesn't really matter what the other person did. If my workout sucked or a conversation didn't go the way I wanted, I should have been able to read the signs or predict and counter the negative factors in the workout or their behavior.
If I'm sitting on the floor after a workout feeling physically awful, I disregard the urge to blame the lack of sleep, the missed meals, dehydration, the time off or the lack of equipment. These are all things I could have controlled and better accounted for. It's my responsibility to make it better.
Just the other day I was talking to someone whom I considered one of the best friends after an uncertain last conversation about two years ago. He called to forgive me; strangely even apologized for holding a grudge (though I had been the one in the wrong). At the moment I was still in that tachypsychic slow motion is-this-really-happening state that also accompanies things like car wrecks, unexpected gunfire or flipping over the handlebars of a downhill mountain bike into a boulder. It did make me think about the people I've cut out of my life and made excuses for not contacting them. In each situation I can find instances where I was in the wrong.
Are you out of shape? Do your workouts suck? Are you stuck in a dead end job? It's your fault. Knowledge is free. So is effort. Do your workouts suck because you're not eating well, because you're just not putting yourself into them, because you're dehydrated or because your program sucks? That's your fault. Or is it because your gym sucks or your trainer sucks? That's your fault too, because you choose those things.
Understand that and you can make it better. Or, you can keep on blaming the things that you can't control and continue to wake up every day to a slightly older but otherwise unchanged self.
"On the occasion of every accident that befalls you, remember to turn to yourself and inquire what power you have for turning it to use." -Epictetus:
"Much of your pain is self chosen" -Khalil Gibran
